It’s the last thing any driver wants to see in their rearview mirror. Yes, blue lives matter, but we don’t want to see a cop driving right behind us. I had that delightful experience a few weeks ago when I was on my way home from a meeting on Erev Shabbos.
The strange thing was that I was in the right lane and going below the speed limit. My mechanic had just told me that some of my tires were worn out. I had ordered new ones and they had arrived at my mechanic’s shop that day but I was planning to go to the mechanic on Sunday, so in the meantime I was driving extra cautiously. There was no way the cop could see that there was anything wrong with my tires on the highway. Therefore, I kept racking my brain trying to figure out what he could have gotten me on. My seat belt was closed, my brake light was working, etc.
I pledged some money to tzedaka if he somehow wouldn’t pull me over. For what felt like forever, he kept following me without turning on his lights and sirens. It was maddening; I felt that if he was going to pull me over, let him just do it already. Finally, I slowed down considerably, at which point the cop switched lanes and zoomed past me.
It was an annoying and frustrating experience, but one which was quickly forgotten, save for including it in this brilliant article.
I once heard an educator note that there are children who feel similarly about their parents, or at least one parent. An adolescent described that he lives his life every day wondering what his father is going to yell at him for next. He is always looking in his proverbial rearview mirror, anticipating the next criticism and harsh rebuke.
Parenting requires that parents rebuke their children when necessary. A parent needs to set boundaries and impose healthy limitations upon his/her child. Yet a parent cannot be an authoritarian either. A child cannot be made to feel that everything he does is subject to criticism.
What’s perhaps even more deleterious is when children (and adults!) maintain this perspective about how Hashem views and relates to them. Rabbi Dovid Orlofsky relates that an adolescent once told him that he perceives Hashem as being an “angry face” hovering in the sky, waiting for us to mess up so he can punish us for our misdeeds. What an awful and false perspective!
Part of emunah entails believing that Hashem loves us despite our failings. On the one hand, one must know that there is indeed a reckoning, and one is responsible for all of his actions in this world. However, one must also understand well that the Judge is also his loving divine Father who wants and awaits his success and growth.
This perspective is especially vital to understand as we head towards the Three Weeks of mourning for all the tragedies throughout the exile, and primarily for the destruction of the two Batei Mikdash.
“Like a father disciplines his son, Hashem, your God, disciplines you.” (Devarim 8:5)
For any growth and healthy connection to Torah and Judaism to occur, one must understand this concept, constantly remind himself of it and deepen his understanding of it. It’s something we don’t hear or say enough: Hashem loves us and believes in us, and that love never changes or fades. It’s the same concept that a child needs to know about his relationship with his parents. He can anger them and frustrate them, but he can never get them to stop loving him!
If only we could have the same level of emunah in ourselves that Hashem has in us!
Rabbi Dani Staum, LMSW, is a popular speaker and author. He is a rebbe in Heichal HaTorah in Teaneck and an experienced therapist who has recently returned to seeing clients in private practice as part of the Rockland CBT group. To schedule an appointment with Rabbi Staum, call (914) 295-0115. Looking for an inspirational and motivational speaker or scholar-in-residence? Contact Rabbi Staum for a unique speaking experience by emailing [email protected]. Archives of his writings can be found at www.stamtorah.info.
